confusion confusion!!!! it is all about my 21st birthday!!! i know that it is in august but the planning for the birthday has already started!!! i initially planned to have both mine and my cousin birthday to be held together because we wanted this for long!!! however, i feel that things are changing a bit... i plan certain things and when i ask for people's advice on it, everyone has different views... some say it not worth it and some say it is not going to work!!!! lots of reviews!!!! i feel stressed over this... i have lots of fear that it is not going to turn out alright!!! i am afraid that people are going to be unhappy over the things that i planned for them!!! plus... my sister's boyfriend has lots in store for her which is meant to be surprise for her.... he didn't know that we were planning to do it together!!! so he planned everything for her.... yesterday when i was talking to him!!! he told me about some of his plans!!! i felt like... i am intruding in his plans as he as a boyfriend planned for his girlfriend which is my sister but if i am going to do with her he has to plan for me too... which is something i feel weird!!! the whole night i was stressed over this!!!! i am afraid people are not going to enjoy my 21st birthday!!! its very heartbreaking when after so much of planning, people are not going to enjoy.... i will cry on that spot if someone said to me that i prefer it another way!!!!finally, after spending the whole night thinking about this, i have decided!!!

I will not celebrate my 21st Birthday

so much of stress in terms of planning, arranging and then preparing for it!!! i am scared about the reaction of the people.... its very scary.... i do not want spend so much of money on something which i am scared off!!! i rather take that money and go on a holiday alone on my 21st birthday. simple and sweet!!! no tension