Finally it is decided... the preparations are going to be finalised on Wednesday.... i have to go with a full flow with a happy smile... well i am not sure whether i can give a full smile or a plastic smile on that day!!! i wish everything will be alright. i just wish i can be comfortable in this whole preparations that is planned for me... it is very sad that i am going to be 21 and my opinions are not really bothered... its like... what say do i have in all these years... how i wish to somehow escape this whole embarrassment that is going to happen on the 30th aug 2008 ~ damn me!!