I just do not know where to begin. Every time the topic of my 21st birthday comes about... there are so many conflicts. yesterday, the topic came about and this time i gave a piece of my mind to my parents saying that everything is already planned for me and no one bothered to ask what i actually want!!! to be honest, no one came to me and asked "arcchana... how would you like to celebrate your birthday!!!" not even a single soul did that!!! i have always kept this in my heart as it would hurt my parents when i said this to them but yesterday i had no choice but to speak up. they were shocked and then they realised what i said was true. my mom made the arrangements and my dad went along with it. my cousin made the arrangements for the party... but no one even bothered to ask me "is this what i want"..... then my parents asked how i wanted to celebrate my birthday and i actually had no idea. i keep on thinking that everything is planned and why must i bother to even think about it as no one really pays attention to what i think here.... i am stuck here.... lots of argument and lots of conflicts come about whenever they mention my birthday.... this really sucks until i do not have the slightest desire to even celebrate my birthday..... i used to have lots of plans when i was 18 and 19....but now... i just do not want the date to come because i know i would be doing things that are "already planned for me"... nothing would be my wish i think!!!! i just feel so much of... ermm.... "hate" towards 17 August.... so much of things happened because of this and now i have no desire at all to even bother about the celebration!!! WHATS THE POINT ANYWAY!!!!