Tuesday, April 21, 2009
to be honest, right now i am feeling very scared... well initially the idea of going to Australia to study was like a dream come true... i always thought that studying in overseas university is cool and only some people would be able to get it so when i was in year three of my poly...my parents agreed to the fact that they will allow me to study in the overseas Uni...however, now with the date coming closer... i feeling scared... i do not know what i really want now.. do i really want to go to Australia to study or what... my whole mind is blank... i thought i knew what i want but actually i was lying to myself... i honestly do not know what i want... i am battling with this question for so long and till now i cannot find the answer or solution to it... i seriously hope someone can help me in this.... it is not a easy thing to go alone and study in Australia and given my nature and the way i have been living it is not easy at all.... i will complain and have temper tantrums when i do not get what i want... some people might find it annoying... my mom always say that i am taking things for granted and now i actually know what she means by that... i cannot do the housework properly at all and worst still i could be moody at times... oh god... however, the most important thing of all, i still do not know what i want with my life... is Australia Education the one that is right for me.... i am still having my doubts... i think i am going to put the education on hold and decide what i really want.... to be honest, right now i am feeling so lost....totally lost..